Weekend Adventures

June 30, 2018

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So last day of June. What have I done lately that was noteworthy? Hmm. I’m sure there are some small things that I have changed in myself that was worth mentioning, like trying to be less critical of myself. I think that has been the biggest thing, as well. I also was able to try to get to bed earlier, even if I end up waking up at the odd 3:00 AM hour.  The point is I have tried. And the most painful lately, I have tried to let someone go. I have avoided being online more than I have to,  in order to not “run” or see him online. I will not really get use to it, but I am trying. Small changes are all we can really do. Then they become habits. Then I can move on and feel better soon.

Last night (Friday) was such an odd day. I had a really early morning, as I had 3 doctors appointments super early so I was up at 5:45 AM. I had to be out the door about 7:00 AM. Plenty of parking that early. Not too bad of a wait. Changed into my awesome blue wrap for the mammogram. To say that it’s uncomfortable is an understatement. I was standing in a weird position for each picture. I am tiny and not that tall. I stand about 4’11”, so the machine had to be adjusted to the lowest setting. Lol. But it was fine. I finished then waiting in the waiting room til my doctor was able to read the results before I was sent to another room for the ultrasound. It is always a cringe moment, because I am always so afraid there is something new that will pop up. I mean what can, since I have all these crazy drugs in my body fighting off the bad cancer, right? But still, I always am so nervous. My blood pressure is always high before these appointments. No matter how much I breath or try to calm myself. So I got scanned and the technician took results to my doctor. Results were all good. The beigne lump was shrinking so they were not too worried about it. They  would continue to keep an eye out by next appointment in 6 months. Plus I have surgery coming up real soon, so my doctor will probably take it out along with the remaining cancer, just for safety measures. I was happy.

Next appointment was just a few buildings away at 9:15 AM. It was kind of a zoo when I showed up at the check-in window. I was told to come today because my doctor was booked out til end of July but I would be able to see a NP. Hence me coming in today because of my other appointment being the same day. BUT, she didn’t have me, said that the NP was not working and that the doctor was booked up this morning. I was not feeling good and this EKG was past overdue since my heart was not in the best shape. Point was I needed to get in this morning so I could be ok to finish my last chemo treatment next Wednesday, if not, it could get moved out one more week. I really  needed that not to happen. I am so close and I needed to get this EKG to make sure. I explained and told the receptionist to please, if she needed, to call my oncologist. This appointment was urgent. She looked at me and saw the desperation on my face and the urgency in my voice (which was oddly calm but sad). So she told me that she was gonna look to see if there was a cancellation. There was. She said that it would be about 20 minutes or so since there was only 2 doctors in the office today. I was relieved and was happy to wait instead of having to come back at noon or on Saturday. I finally got called. Nurse was nice, she must be new. She was able to do the EKG and the doctor saw me to go over the good results. My heart was healing, still a bit of a flutter and the random slow rhythmic beat once in a while but it was getting stronger. Thumbs up to my healing broken heart!

On my drive to pick up my son, I remembered that I didn’t really eat breakfast. We got home, made lunch since it was about that time. I really don’t remember. It was a hot day. My friend brought over sushi dinner and teriyaki chicken for dinner. We caught up a bit and it was nice to be able to hear about what’s been going on at work. I miss working. The interactions at least. After an hour we had dinner. Sushi was nice and light. I always enjoy the smaller pieces. Then my son and I, both took a nap which turned into sleep for the rest of Friday night. I woke up at 2:45 AM. Had to wake my son to make sure he had a drink of water since it was super warm in our house. The AC was not coming on, so I had to turn down the temperature a bit to make sure it would be comfortable for the rest of the morning.

This morning we both woke up at about 10:00 AM. I showered since it was pretty warm still. I made blueberries and cottage cheese for breakfast. I think my son had cereal. Most of today was relaxing and playing games. He played Stardew Valley with his friends. Lol.  I played Stardew Valley on the xBox One. Movies, dinner, now just trying to catch up with online things and cleaning a bit. My room is just a big storage room at the moment. I plan to get rid of a lot of stuff on Craigslist and donating rest. Hopefully I will have energy tomorrow.

Hope your weekend has been busy and fun. I miss going out so share what you did in the comments. I’d love to hear about all the fun weekend adventures that you had.

Have a wonderful night everyone! As always, thanks for joining me!

Friends are therapist that you can drink with! Cheers!

Thankful Thursday Adventures

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It has been a funny morning. I went to rest my eyes and woke up at 2:56 AM. I tried to close my eyes again and woke at 5:53 AM. So I tried again to fall back asleep and finally got some shut eye. Guess third time’s a charm. I really did get some restful sleep finally. I was thankful for no early alarm this morning because I forgot. I had never been so happy at forgetting. Lol.

Today was a lazy day. I woke up, washed my face, made breakfast, had my coffee, and caught up with some text messages. While I was getting breakfast, I got a call for one of my appointments that I needed to make. So crossed that off my To-Do list. I was thankful that Sutter Imaging called when I was close to my phone. Otherwise I would’ve had to call them to set up the ultrasound appointment.

I watched some anime with a friend on Rabbit. It was a good time. And as always, was multitasking by playing some Stardew Valley trying to grind for money and trying to finish some of the community center bundles so I can get a greenhouse. I got some of the items but only was able to get a beehive. I was still thankful since I need honey for some of the recipes that I have learned. Lol.

It was a hard time to wake my son, but he finally woke up since his friend had invited him for a sleepover. I was thinking that I couldn’t let him go, since I usually need him to help me and watch me just in case I get dizzy or something else comes up. I got enough sleep and haven’t really been dizzy in weeks, so I figured he would be alright to go stay over with his friend. He needs to do more than stay home all summer with me. And so far, I’m just relaxing and watching the series called Fresh Off the Boat first season, since I hadn’t watched it all the way through.  I had chicken and rice for dinner. Might have some blueberries and cottage cheese as a snack in a bit. So I’m thankful that I am not dizzy anymore, allowing my son to hang out with his friend tonight.

With the beautiful night, I was glad to get out for a bit. I have an early morning so it will be good to get some early sleep tonight. I need it and won’t have to worry about getting him to bed on time and waking him up too.

I’m gonna call it a night. Gonna read a bit and just watch some calm movies or funny movies and hopefully get sleepy and pass out early. Since it’s gonna be Friday in a few hours.

Hope you all had a great day as well. Have a great night! Thankful for a nice quiet day and all of you that have been following my blog.

As always, thanks for joining me!

Be thankful for the little moments with your loved ones.

 

Hump Day Adventures

June 27, 2018

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Happy Wednesday! Surprise to me, I woke up at 5:00 AM instead of my usual 3:00 AM. It felt awesome! Alarms are a wonderful thing, right? Bless you alarms! I don’t think I could ever remember much these days. Lol. #HalfBrainSushi is something I use in my stream chats, since I am so random in my thoughts. I forget what I was doing or saying. It’s fun to laugh at yourself. I’m glad I can do that now and again. Self love people. Self love. So yes, thank you alarm for waking me this morning. Getting ready before my appointment, I had plenty of time. After slowly eating my Raisin Bran cereal with cut up bananas, I look at the time and it’s already almost 9:00 AM! I quickly eat, grabbed stuff I needed (earbuds, charger, water, and chapstick), put on shoes and headed out the door.

Beautiful day with low 60 degrees and sunshine. The drive was nice without too much traffic. Always valet, since no parking spaces on busy Wednesdays. Mercy Hospital has some really nice employees. I’m fortunate to meet most of them during my current breast cancer adventures. The waiting room has a T.V. and the summer grilling segment was on, so I got hungry. Especially when the camera panned over the juicy, grilled watermelon slices. OMG, so YUMMY looking! Lol. Glad I only had to wait a few more minutes. Otherwise others could’ve heard my tummy grumbling. Hehehe.

Remember I said Wednesdays are busy? No exception in this office. All the usual larger rooms were full, so I got a small private room to share with just another patient. I was kinda glad today. Mingling is hard most days, I was feeling less social today. Unsure why really, just was. My son usually hangs out and when the medication makes me fall asleep, he runs down to nice cafe to hang out and grab snacks and juice or a smoothie. He passes the time watching YouTube videos and scrolling Reddit memes. He’s such a grown young man and I love him being there with me to give me the support. As always, so grateful I created him and even give thanks that his dad for gaving me this wonderful, smart, caring human being. Love my baby boy SO MUCH!!

Countdown; #2 DONE!! YAY!!!! One more treatment to go. Woot woot!

Hhmmm. Although I was tired from just waking up from treatment, we had to run errands since we are never in the neighborhood. So had to suck it up and do them. First to the bank. I wanted to show my son how to make an ATM deposit to his savings account. Learning time, but since his ATM card hasn’t been used in over a year, ATM couldn’t read it. FishFail LOL. Funny. So we had to go inside, which I was not feeling it. The human interaction part, since I was exhausted and groggy. But not to bad of a wait. I showed my son how to fill out a deposit slip. Instructing him on where things went, account number, amount of deposit, etc. He had gotten a small check from Amazon stock interest or something, can’t remember. It was a good learning experience for him. Something he can do for himself and for me if I need him to in future. After that was done. We headed back to our town. First needed to pick up some stuff for dinner, since we didn’t do it yesterday. You know they say not to food shop hungry, well…. Hehe it’s true you end up with a few more things that were not on grocery list. LOL. It was fine since we would’ve had to put them on next list anyways.

Home finally, had to eat of course, since it was about lunch time. Rested a bit and had to take nap. Now watching a LEGO Ninjago series on Amazon. I love having Prime! It’s about 5:32 PM. I think we will have a late dinner and just hang out.

Hope your hump day was as adventurous. Enjoy the wonderful sun. Watch World Cup. Laugh. Make Moments. Have an amazing evening, night!

As always, thanks for joining me!

Make fun moments with family, cause they will love you no matter what.

Sushi’s Day Adventures

June 26, 2018

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Happy Tuesday! Or Happy Sushi’s Day! It’s my day since my IRL name means Tuesday. I like the fact that I get a special day each week. Lol. Nothing too special about my day though. Just a relaxing day after waking up at my usual 3:00 AM calling hour. Restless sleep but it was ok. I messaged some people who are night owls from other side of the world while awake for an hour before I tried to get back to bed. I sometimes just don’t understand my body. At least lately any how.

I woke up at 9:30 AM for real. I had to actually listen to my alarm since I was expecting a visitor at 10:00 AM. I cleaned a bit and made breakfast. Yum scrambled eggs and leftover steamed asparagus. I know, weird but it was what I wanted.  I was full so rested before the visit from my friend’s husband. We chatted for a bit and I thanked him for being such a lifesaver past month. They have been so helpful with grocery errands and just stopping by to check on me and my son. I don’t think I would make it through these past 7 months without my supportive family, friends, and my second family; my co-workers. I definitely have friends in them. Hehehe. My son took a nap and I watched movies on Amazon. I forget that with my Prime account I get free movies and music AND free next day shipping! What? LOL.

It’s funny how we are all so programed to multitask. I find myself not being able to just do one thing at a time. Even when I was working. I just felt like I would get more done? Or just really needed to stay busy, like lately. So while I was watching “Valerian and the City of a Thousand Planets”, I made phone calls and updated/ fixed some online stuff. I had already watched the movie so it was fine. Just funny how its a habit.

At about 7:00 PM, I tried to wake my heavy sleeping son. He said the most funniest thing while I was on phone call with his friend calling to see if he was finally awake. I told my son to “wake up honey.” His sleepy response was, ” What’s the button to wake up?” Both his friend and I laughed so hard, I nearly fell over. My sweet, sweet baby. That was a wonderful moment for my day for sure.

Then somehow that changed…. remember how I’m on so many medications lately? Yeah… I somehow was triggered and started to yell at my son about some stuff that really didn’t call for it. I think the combination of medication and being super hungry since we hadn’t eaten yet really messed with my sugar levels or something… Sigh.. I turned into an emotional, raging mess, then cried and had to apologize to my poor son. He really doesn’t deserve to see me that way and I really can’t seem to control the irritation much these days. I try my best to not let him see that side of my anger but it’s really hard. These are the days of Sushi that need to pass quickly.  I then breathed….

So with that said, I have to reiterate that I am not perfect. I try my best to always be positive, cheerful, caring, considerate, and gracious. Some days are harder than others. Today was good but I could’ve handled my emotions better, for everyone’s sake. Note to self, “Breath Sushi!”

I hope your day was better than an average day. Cherish moments and the people in your life. Enjoy your night!

As always, thanks for joining me!

When emotions get overwhelming, just breathe…

Moody Monday Adventures

June 25, 2018

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Life is strange and so are emotions. Today started out with me waking up and being overwhelmed with a sadness that had me in tears. I was just so tired, so exhausted and just so sad. I know the reason why and try not to think about it too much. But I had a dream about this person again, so it brought tears. His absence brings tears. This morning was just really weird that I let it get to me. I have been super good about just feeling, then letting it pass. Not sure why today I was not able to just push past my feelings.

So, I went outside and walked in the cool, breezy air and let the bright, happy sky cheer me up. My son is really good in figuring out my moods lately, especially with the current medications I have been on with my chemo and my heart condition. My heart is literally broken. It flutters and doesn’t beat as strongly as it did a few months ago. The stress and emotional toll past 7 months has really got me so exhausted. Don’t get me wrong, I am usually a cheerful Sushi, but its been harder to see the bright side when I often feel I have no control of what is happening to me. All I can really do is feel the feelings and just try to react in the best way I know how. I try to stay positive for the sake of my son, but late at night when my mind is free to wander, I cry. Then when I’m exhausted, I pass out and sleep as long as my body will let me.  So today, I was grateful for the sun and the nice cool walk with my wonderful son. He makes me laugh and smile. He is my amazing young man and  I thank God everyday that he is mine.

Mondays are not any different for me lately since all days roll into one. With the exception of Wednesdays and Thursdays. I was pretty productive today. I cleaned out the mail drawer and organized (tried) my desk. It is not quite clear but I’m working on it box and bag after bag. Other then the clutter, my desk would be super organized.

After a strawberry and cottage cheese bowl for a snack, I relaxed by watching some of my friends streaming on Twitch. Watched some speedruns on Summer Games Done Quick. Caught up on the World Cup. This year, I haven’t really followed it too closely. Portugal looks like they did great against Iran. I will have to go on Twitter to catch up on today’s game. I also caught up on emails, texts, and phone calls. Funny thing I like to do is cross out movies or series off my watch list. Like I stated when I started this blog, I have plenty of free time and most of it is watching movies. It’s the only activity that doesn’t require me to use my hands. They are numb and shaky all the time. I miss drawing and coloring, but can only do it in limited time frame.

Anyhow, that has been my day. This typing is starting to make my fingertips sting, so I will close with this. We all go through life looking for the good and hoping for the best. So if you have a bad emotional day once in awhile, it’s okay. I use to give myself a hard time and give that harsh self-talk of “..suck it up and get over it!” Now I just let myself feel, cry if I need to, then try to get past it as best I can. I am grateful to have my supportive family and my close friends IRL or online. I know that I am loved. I just need to give it time to pass. Love after all is the strongest emotion, whether you are in love or out of love.

Sorry for the feels today. It is one thing about my Aries nature that I love but sometimes wish I had more control over.

I hope your Monday was interesting as well, good or bad. Embrace the good and learn from the bad. Only way we can grow as a person.

I’m going to watch my son play The Awesome Adventures of Captain Spirit. Fun and easy going video game. Good night all! As always, thanks for joining me!

Are you crying? There’s no crying!! There’s no crying in baseball!! – Tom Hanks “A League of Their Own”

Laughing makes everything better.

 

Lazy Sunday Adventures

June 24, 2018

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Yes, it was a lazy Sunday for me. I often do not have much to do on Sundays, hence lazy Sunday title.  I love that there is always one day you can just do nothing and not feel bad about it. This was more so when I was working. I still need a day to just relax and Sundays are those days.

With that said, since I am not working and have time to spare, even on Sundays, I often find that I am very bored or just lazy. LOL. I am not really, but I feel it. Do you know what I mean? I am a very active person and always have something going on over the weekends. Hence the To-Do list that I have been working so hard to complete to no end. I like it that way. Now I have to fill my time with other creative things that might not make sense to others, but is something to keep me from being bored. So I made a schedule of sorts for myself. On Sundays, I stream my #LazySunday on Twitch. Since I got sick, I have not been able to play much video game on PC, due to my hands shaking and fingers being numb from medications. I can only play, if I try, for like 10 or so minutes. But I found that with my xBox One controller, I am able to steady my hands since they are around the controller, gripping them and using my thumbs instead of all my fingers that are numb. So it is good for me to keep up with at least my Sunday streams to interact with my followers and to have conversations that I wouldn’t normally have if I didn’t stream on Twitch.  I like it and it make me happy to be able to have those interactions, even though it’s only online. I have met many great people and have made really good friends since I started streaming over a year ago. Meaning, I love to keep to my #LazySunday even if I don’t get to stream any other days.

After the 5 hours of streaming, I just hopped in an out of other friends streams to say hello and chat. By brunch time, I was very tired so rested a bit. Now just relaxing and watching movies til I feel like sleeping. The weather was nice, but still was too warm to go or do much outside. I hung out indoors. Hope it is nice tomorrow but not hot. I do need to get some sun.

Hope your Sunday was lazy or just relaxing.

As always, thanks for joining me!

Start the day off with a smile on this Sunday morning.

Sleepy Saturday Adventures

June 23, 2018

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Happy Saturday! I think my body really needed sleep, so I pretty much slept til like 6:00PM. I have been really tired lately and a bit down. The new medication is helping but has me sleepy and loopy. I guess it’s a good thing. I had strange dreams too. Hmmmm, right? All these things happening in your brain while your body is resting.

Not much happened today since most of it I spent in REM. LOL. I spent time updating and checking emails, looking at my To-Do list to see if there was anything I could cross off (not much on weekends), replied to text messages, and had brunch. I streamed a bit on Twitch playing Borderlands Pre-Sequel with my son, for about an hour. It was alright. I was not feeling it, plus my fingers are so numb and feeling weird from chemo. So an hour was just perfect to get a little stream in to say hello to my followers and be able to make it fun as well.  I mainly stream to interact with other viewers and to play games. It hasn’t been much fun but I am getting back into it.

Then quick dinner and now just relaxing. Might watch a movie or just call it a night. Not sure just yet. It’s still pretty warm out, about 100 degrees still. I think I ate too fast again. Getting that uncomfortable feeling.

Hope your day was fun and interesting.  Have a great night everyone!

As always, thanks for joining me!

“If someone wishes you good night every day, you’re happier than so many people.” – Martin Freeman

Good night!

Movie Adventures

June 22, 2018

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TGIF! It is quite late for this post, but wanted to make sure to keep these posts going.

I had a good day. A long awaited dentist appointment early in the morning for my son. He was nervous but good visit. Findings were clean, strong teeth, and no cavities. WOOHOO!

After lunch, we just hung out at home. And the movies included Black Panther, Thank You For Playing, It’s The Most Wonderful Time of the Year, Bed and Breakfast, The Big Sick, and Click. So my Friday consisted of oohs and aahs, woow, crying, sadness, inspiration, laughter, tears, anger, and more crying and laughter.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Thanks for joining me!

Movies are awesome ways to spend time with family.

Online Adventures

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Happy first day of Summer! Can you believe that it’s summer already? I can’t believe that half the year is almost done. Guess time flies as you get older. Or when you’re having fun!

So today I notice that I am keeping to my daily posts online. I posted on Twitter, Instagram, Reddit, and this blog. I’m pretty proud of myself. Before a year ago, I spent 10 years trying to stay off the online radar. I even avoided having a smart phone for a few years, if you can even believe such a thing. I was dead-set in my ways to avoid as much negativity and just those really not-great-people in the world. AND that is saying a lot coming from me. I get along with everyone and can pretty much find the good in almost anything. Such bad dramas, I was just trying to avoid as much as I could and the people that came with them. I haven’t had the best luck in meeting guys online, but I did give the online thing another chance. But sadly, it too recently ended in sadness. This is a story I am not ready to share just yet, since it is still too painful….

Don’t get me wrong. I am online for everything. I look up stuff. I watch YouTube videos. I stream on Twitch. I play video games on Xbox One. I play games on Steam. I look up how to clean tough stains. I find cool ways to organize small spaces. I watch movies and anime with groups on Rabbit. For someone that has been offline just over a year ago, I’m pretty quick to jump back on and learn all about the memes and finding that I’m often talking with emotes. Who knew that this is what it would be like, when the internet first came to volition? I am now chuckling softly, as I remember Drew Barrymore’s line in the movie “He’s Just Not That Into You”. With the many conveniences of the internet and technology, it has also been super complicated.

The great thing about the internet, is that I have also met some great people that I wouldn’t have never had a chance to meet IRL. It really is a wonder and so weird at times. But pretty amazing! Who knows where this online thing will go in a few more years, 10 more years, or 100 more years? It is only 2018, we can only wait and see.

Well my day was pretty relaxing. I got some sleep but had bad dreams. But all and all, it was an okay day. Got a visitor that brought over movies that I have been waiting to watch (Black Panther was among them). Had summer food, aka hot dogs, cherries, and a small bowl of raspberry sorbet! YUMMY! Hope your first day of summer was a nice one.

As always, thanks for joining me today!

Cause a little bit of summer’s what the whole year’s about. – John Mayer

Summer solstice 2018

Wednesday’s Adventures

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I literally got woken up by buzzing in my ears. There was a mosquito that must’ve snuck in through the door with last nights dinner delivery. Little sneaky sneaker. I was glad there weren’t any bits, thank goodness. They itch like heck!

I did sleep a bit better and was surprised once again that I didn’t wake at the 3:00 AM cringing hour. That makes it two night of decent rest! Woot woot! But I did wake up earlier than my set alarm, which had me a bit tired still. So coffee called and I answered. LOL. I again commend myself for being productive and getting some stuff crossed off my VERY long list of To-Dos. Ok it was only like 2, but at least the action of putting a not-so-straight-line through it was super exciting to say the least. It was a proud moment indeed (patting myself on the back).

LOL. Okay onto the next adventure of the day. Getting my son up in the mornings is like trying to wake a hibernating bear deep in winter. I kid you not, he is SUCH a heavy sleeper that it frightens me a bit. But I managed to get him awake after like 20 tries. Cereal (Raisin Brand is GOOD!) with cut-up bananas is the greatest thing in the morning AND coffee? OH YEAH!

Such a warm day today, but slight breeze made it beautiful. We got to my appointment kinda early but the wait was not bad. They love me there and saved me a comfy chair in front today. I got my favorite nurse Burneie. She was the one that christened me to this 12 week chemo treatments. Countdown #3 today, so just 2 more to go! I am so happy that there were only a few incidents that came up. I pushed on and now have only 2 more treatments to go. After this, only 2 more big hurdles left on my breast cancer adventure. Fighting!!!

But lets get back to the fun today. Great comfy chair, favorite nurse what more could a girl ask for right? How about ice cream? Yup! They were passing out popsicles. We got lime. It was nice! Then they brought me a fluffy pillow and the cutest, softest blanket with pink flamingos! OMG! SO CUTENESS!! She said she notice I was wearing pink today. See what I mean? Such love for Sushi <3. I saw the doctor, good everything, more test ordered, and then finished with the rest of medications. The great thing about these treatments, I get to sleep through them all mostly. Today although it was a longer day, seem to go by much more quick.  In N Out on our way home. Now just relaxing and gonna head to bed since I will most likely wake up at my usual 3:00 AM calling hour. The steroids keep me kinda restless so I have to try to lay down when I feel the slightest twinge of tired. LOL.

All was good today. I am grateful that things went well. I feel good today!

Hope your day was eventful and had some good in it. Have a wonderful night. As always, thanks for joining me!

 Look for the sunny side of everything. It will be bright and beautiful for you.